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John Eivaz


We suffer
the bed,
our writhing
time wants
no end
or entropy,
of stars,

no poem
of writhing,
nor someone
over a shoulder,
for these things
end too.

But I love
to touch:
your shoulder,
a poem;
saunter in

We suffer
the bed,
the floor,
a cool lawn
at sunset,
make peace
with wind
and stars,
the blur
of rainstorm --

how it helps us
forgive our

The scent you leave
on me mingles
with stars.

Later, I remember.


campout at deathpoint

the cold thin blanket
scratches my ankles
as the fire draws down
into its own burnt wood
and the first chill
well past midnight
brings back green walls
blue bed
the midpoint of kiss
meant to end the fire
meant to make sleep
between desires
every chill after
leaves me closer
to you

sundown at deathcamp

no need rumor
or inside information
there's a tired march
into sleep   nothing
can hide smells
sights eyes
looking more
at walls

the space man untethered

recurring dream of UFOs

how the aftermath of the bomb would feel
the radiation

words like aftermath

scared me
some narcotic
onto every
bright bare

(i was
at least
afraid of
the less-
back then)

death meditation

I am a dishonest man.
I cannot do the death meditation.
I have begun to imagine
myself leaving these places
as I close in on sleep --
but choose sleep instead,

choose love instead
in the imagined clearing
the music of moonlight
soft upon her
as I choose this sleep instead.

©2004 by John Eivaz

John Eivaz was born in New York and lives in California. He loves to write, because it is the cheapest thing one can do for fun when one is broke. He writes a lot, and has been published online and in print in various places, including past issues of Slow Trains and its first print anthology. In past incarnations he was the editor of MiPo~Print and the poetry and flash fiction editor of the Erotica Readers and Writers Web site. His writing has been recognized online by the IBPC, and has been nominated for a Pushcart Prize. He works at a winery. Read more of his work at the Web site he shares with P.J. Nights.

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